Faith...Complete

For the past few years, I've always had the idea that for a woman to feel complete, she needs to get married and have children. Only then will she have completed what God has designed for her. It's just meant to be that way.

As time passes, I realise that this is not the case. The completeness doesn't come from a relationship with a man, a sense of belonging in a family. If a woman has it, it's a bonus that God has given and provisioned; if she doesn't have, she can still feel complete, at peace and comforted. It's the Grace of God that makes a person complete. And it is the faith of one in Christ that reaches out to recieve God's Grace. One needs to have faith that He loves you, He hears you, He answers your prayers to keep walking and bearing all the thorns in life, even when you pray God to remove the thorns and He doesn't not remove it, one must have faith that He knows it's better for you to bear the thorns than without it. The thorns have made people to lean on God. As a whole, one must have faith.

I have been reminded of the importance of faith many times this week: through the Christian book that I am reading, through the sermon, through the quiet time material, even through my keyboard lesson. I don't know what God is really trying to say to me exactly, neither do I know what lies ahead. But I know that He wants me to hang on and walk in faith with Him. "They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed" (Psalm 34:5). For a couple of days after the confirmation, I felt far away from God. I lost my connection with Him somehow. I just didn't know how to communicate with Him. But thank God that He keeps prompting me that I should have faith in Him.

I understand why God wants us to go to church, to be in a community with God's people around, to have our quiet time and so on. These are all channels for Him to talk to us too. But eventually, it's our personal relationship with God that sustains us, that makes up the faith. As A.W. Tozer has put it, "Faith is the gaze of the soul upon the Lord." It's fixing our eyes upon Him, setting our hearts for Him and "having the inward habit of beholding the Lord". One's relationship with God is personal, so is faith. Christianity is a relationship with God. And the relationship is solely based on one's individual faith in Him.

It is the Faith in Him that makes me complete. The song that I learned in my keyboard class just resonates the voice in my heart.

Complete by Parachute Band

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart
I offer up my life

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

Chorus:
So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now
Let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears
And I will be complete in You

I will be complete in You

Anna